busy day

A new post for kicks.

Still at office, walked in at 11:30, spent the rest of the day
attending to customers request for a new nand map.

need to balance my life. im spending more than 14/15 hours
at work. sounds crazy but, i have got used to it.

too bad na?

Too bad, i dont have a life other than work. life sucks man.

No time to think, got a release, concentrate.

Made the changes in the kernel, modified u-boot to skip
bad blocks during erase.

its 12:30pm, still writing documentation, scripts, testing
filesystems, drivers.


Got to finish this release soon.

Dairy

Im going to use this as my dairy to update my weekly timesheets.

Having trouble remembering what i was doing 2 days back.


from now on this blog is going serve that purpose.

earlier i thought i have nothing to write here.

From now on its going to be my online dairy which im going to
refer to update my timesheets.

working hard

Its sunday and im at office as usual, i need to complete my work before friday.

I dont want to work next weekend and ofcourse i need to take that long due vacation.

Nothing much, dont feel like working - just going through the motions.


Im planning to buy a car next month - before that i need to learn driving.

hmm. talking of cars - i dont know much, i need to figure out the model.

probably i will go for swift - heard its selling like hot cakes.

Someone at office told me the relaunch of matiz is round the corner.

Its either going to be swift/getz/matiz.


I need to ask my friends and shall make up my mind soon.

Screwed up..

I screwed up the only hardware i had. I really need to kick myself for this stupid act.

Without hardware, i dont have any work. which is a good thing for a change.

The catch is the customer will kill us. My boss is furious. i feel bad.

what a day man. i dont know what to do.


Well, this is also pass i guess.


Oh god. i feel like shit.

Essence of Gita

ot a release today. don't feeling like releasing anything except stress. :-)

Off late, I contemplate a lot. - I keep on asking where am i?. why am i doing this?.
Is this what i want to do?. Things like that?.

I'm feeling better after reading a couple of pages of Gita.

I need to concentrate, got a release this evening

Essence Of Gita

• Why do you worry without cause? Whom do you fear without reason? Who can kill you? The soul is neither born, nor does it die.
• Whatever happened, happened for the good; whatever is happening, is happening for the good; whatever will happen, will also happen for the good only. You need not have any regrets for the past. You need not worry for the future. The present is happening...
• What did you lose that you cry about? What did you bring with you, which you think you have lost? What did you produce, which you think got destroyed? You did not bring anything - whatever you have, you received from here. Whatever you have given, you have given only here. Whatever you took, you took from God. Whatever you gave, you gave to him. You came empty handed, you will leave empty handed. What is yours today, belonged to someone else yesterday, and will belong to someone else the day after tomorrow. You are mistakenly enjoying the thought that this is yours. It is this false happiness that is the cause of your sorrows.

	"Whatever you took, you took from God. Whatever you gave, you gave to him. You came empty handed, you will leave empty handed."

• Change is the law of the universe. What you think of as death, is indeed life. In one instance you can be a millionaire, and in the other instance you can be steeped in poverty. Yours and mine, big and small - erase these ideas from your mind. Then everything is yours and you belong to everyone.
• This body is not yours, neither are you of the body. The body is made of fire, water, air, earth and ether, and will disappear into these elements. But the soul is permanent - so who are you?
• Dedicate your being to God. He is the one to be ultimately relied upon. Those who know of his support are forever free from fear, worry and sorrow.
• Whatever you do, do it as a dedication to God. This will bring you the tremendous experience of joy and life-freedom forever.

Getting old

Suddenly realised that I'm getting old.
Irregular food and sleeping habits. all the parts on my body hurts.
i don't feel like working at all. I'm sick, really sick.
Wait a min, am i just sick or lazy.
Must admit, its both in equal measure.

I'm 32, unmarried, with very little bank balance.

What i have been doing the last 6 years? feel like have lost 6 years.
achieved very little. Well that's a different story all together.

Off late, I'm thinking marriage, kids, house,... that makes me really
sad. Is this just peer/parental pressure. I am the oldest guy in my team.
Off late, I have made attempts to hide my real age many time when someone
asks my date of birth.

Sick. isn't it?

Well, Right now i just want to improve my health, physique.
then lets see that happens

I'm feeling very tired, i need some rest.

Depressed

Today im feeling extremely depressed. yet another weekend working.
I have been working for the last 3 months without a offday. Im tired.
My mom called me yesterday and told me i have abandoned her.
Its 3 months since i visited my native even though its 100kms away.
It really sucks, Im struck in a rut.
I need to get out of here as soon as i can. too much work.
I need to organise my life, strike a decent balance.

That i can do only if i complete all my current assignments.

That will take another 2 months. ahhh. life is certainly not easy.